Sunday evening I landed in Fairbanks to restart my life. My best friend Paiton greeted me with open arms, flowers, and chocolate. I've been here for two days and I could not be happier. I live by a lake, there is a sauna in my building, and the sun has not stopped shining since I got here.
I have such an amazing support system in my life and it seems like everybody is so willing and ready to help me succeed in this new chapter of my life. I have a car that needs to be fixed up a little bit, then I will be able to start looking for jobs and putting away money. I am feeling so grateful for everybody in my life right now. I have never felt more loved than I have this past week.
Yesterday I went shopping with Paiton and as we walked out of the store, the sun hit my face and I felt so filled with light and joy. I let out this huge sigh of peace and said to Paiton that I felt like I could finally breathe again. I feel so wanted and cherished by all of my friends and family. I don't feel trapped by living here in Fairbanks.
I don't want to look back on the past 4 months as something terrible. I am ready to move on from this point and find the light in every situation around me. Sometimes things end badly. But that is okay. I am happy for the first time in what seems life forever, and I'm ready to seize the day.
