I have planned three weddings in my 19 years on this earth.
•My dream wedding when I was 15. Complete with a ballgown and a nameless prince to sweep me off my feet.
•The wedding that fell apart when I was 18. Complete with a liar and a plane ticket to the opposite side of the country.
•And now the magnificent reality of not planning just a wedding, but a marriage. Complete with a man of God to hold my hand and a feeling of complete peace.
Now, even though there were plans circulating in my head before the actual planning and reservations were made its still stressful to think "this is actually going to happen. I'm writing this idea on paper and it's going to happen." Maybe most women would be exilerated at the idea of that. But I'm pretty much terrified.
You know that show Bridezillas? Those women who have to have it be a day all about "mine mine mine"? I've never been that kind of person. So much so that I think my mom is a bit frustrated with my lack of input in the wedding plans. There were obviously distinct lines of how I thought the day would happen, but it didn't matter much to me if there were drinks or table cloths or if I was even wearing shoes while walking down the aisle. This day is the first day of the rest of my life. So why would I wear shoes? It's far to stressful to think, "If I plan for there to be twinkling lights and we can't get them then the whole wedding is going to be ruined and I'm going to end up laying in a dirty ditch with my dress tattered and nobody will ever talk to me again all because I couldn't get twinkling lights."
I feel like my ability to hyperbolize any situation is one of my best qualities.
But in all honesty, this day is about Gavin and I. And it is all falling into line perfectly. I sat down with my mother for about 20 minutes today and wrote up a list of the things that still needed to be done.
The list was small.
Like. Really small.
One of the biggest signs for me that Gavin and I are continuing to make correct decisions is how easily everything is coming together. The Lord has blessed me with insight, tolerance (which is a big deal because I get frustrated and overwhelmed fairly easy) and overwhelming love for the man who is meant to stand by my side for the rest of eternity.
I am watching blessings over flow. Blessings are coming in every shape and size almost to quickly for me to recognize.
So here I am, planning a day that will be turned into stories we tell our children. And for the people around me, it may be exciting, but the day will come and pass and it won't be so much as a memory for them. For me, and for Gavin, and for our future family, February 6th is a day to remember.